Where My Focus Is

In 2015, there are many distractions that vie for my attention.  Social media, netflix, friends, even family all cry out, “I am the most important thing! Spend time with me!”

I often hear these cries and run to each distraction, zigzagging back and forth to meet the needs of everything that calls me.

Yet, I often don’t bother to pay attention to the more quiet, yet strong voice saying, “Come to Me.”

For the past three months I was distracted.  First, I went on a trip to California and went to Disneyland, distracting me from the Christian conference I was up there to attend.  Next, I was distracted by the world of Valentine’s as I was in a place where I did not have anyone.  I then was distracted with preparations for my spring break service trip, then distracted by the trip itself.

In the midst of these major events, I was distracted even more so by my own worries, fears, and insecurities.  I was distracted with solving my own problems, those of others, and trying to maintain a slowly crumbling facade.

I can’t say I fell away from the Lord during this time, if anything, many times I drew closer to him.  But then, like clockwork, I wandered away, farther and farther each time.

I have a problem with seeking to distract myself from my hurts by quickly turning to what is most accessible, such as Instagram, the Internet, food, and exercise.  It’s hard for me to embrace my flaws and work through them, because as a perfectionist I have the mindset these flaws shouldn’t exist if I do everything exactly right.  Trials in my life are because I did not perform well, do exactly the right thing, etc. This is flawed thinking, and I am slowly coming to realize all the strongholds in my life that are false and from the devil.

I guess I am writing this post to hash out my current feelings and thoughts.  Also, I want to prepare on how to eliminate distractions that keep me from the Lord.

Immediate Obedience;

  • delete Instagram, Snapchat, and Twitter apps from my phone
    • Possible delete them entirely later
  • delete my tumblr
  • deactivate my facebook
  • keep my room clean
    • Clean to two songs everyday
  • Not study in my room
    • Find study spots!!
  • No netflix

I want to have immediate obedience to begin breaking these strongholds and I will start right now.  Lord give me strength.

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.

~Isaiah 26:3 NIV

This entry was published on April 3, 2015 at 10:40 am. It’s filed under Reflection and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

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